Our Children… Our Future

Thinking of our children often brings me to tears
Because they have really changed over the years
From the way they handle their fears
To the way they associate with their peers

Some have become a product of their environment

While others feel they have a sense of entitlement
Not wanting to work hard to get ahead
But expecting everything to be given to them instead

This generation has a lot of growing and maturing to do

To prove they have what it takes to make it thru
And even though some may have gotten off to a bad start
Doesn’t mean they’re not capable and aren’t smart

Smart enough to step up, speak out and lead

Become the future leaders of tomorrow we desperately need
It means we, the community, have to help and do our part
Tell them we care and mean it with all our heart

Our Children… Our Future
 
My True Essence

Damn It!

Damn it
I can’t believe this shit
I let you get into my mind
Throw me off my grind
Disrespect my time
Invade my dreams
Like a theft in the night
Rob me of all my fight
Try to dim my shining light

But it’s my fault

Because better I was taught
You showed me the other side
The side you tried hard to hide
But I didn’t believe what my eyes showed me
I only saw what I wanted to see
Blinded because the sex was so good
Too good for me to walk away
Even when I knew I should

 So I stayed with you

Kept laying with you
Letting you continue to do
Whatever what you wanted to
Until I got tired of being played
Got over the reasons for why I stayed
Packed up and said I quit
Damn it
I can’t believe this shit

 My True Essence

Curiosity

They say curiosity killed the cat

But I’m not so sure I believe that

I’ve always wanted to experience the other side

Do something different, something I’ve never tried

Like how it would feel to make love to her

Could she get me there, make my kitten purr

Would I be able to turn her on, make her hot
Lick and suck her, find her special spot

Will the calming and sensual feel of her touch
Provide the gentleness I miss so much
Will I like the feel of her tongue on my lips

The way her hands slide down my hips

Will I like the softness of her skin against mine

Will I like the way our bodies entwine
Will she smell good and taste even better

Will she be wet like me or even wetter

I don’t know if it will be all I hope it will be
But there is only one way for me to see

They say curiosity killed the cat

How about we just see about that

My True Essence

Already Gone

You may as well go ahead and leave
Because you are already gone
Too many bad things have happened
For us to even try to go on
It seems all we do is break up to make up
And it has really gotten old
Too many tears have been shed
Too many lies have been told

You can’t possibly treat me this way
And expect me to still care
I can’t forget about all of the bad things
That’s damaged what we had beyond repair

It not only damaged me and my heart

It also destroyed the we that became us
At this point I don’t know if I will ever love again
I’m too afraid to love, too afraid trust
My True Essence

The Delete Button

You’ve tried to make it work

The friendship
The relationship
Or the marriage
Even though it’s dead
You keep trying to breathe life into it
That’s the problem
You are the only one breathing into it

So…

You keep hoping
Keep praying
Keep reaching out
Keep texting
Keep calling
Trying to be a friend
Like you have always been
The kind of friend you expect in return

But…

You see nothing has changed
No response
No effort made
No apology
Nothing at all
So you start to feel used
Abused
Taken advantage of
Deeply hurt

Then…

You hit the delete button
Deleting the memories
The connection
The hope
The disappointment
The pain
Even though hitting the button hurts
It helps because you are free

My True Essence

If I Could…

If I could be anything, I’d be the one that makes you smile
The one who gets you and understands your style
If I could be anything, I’d be the twinkle in your eye
The one who brings you peace and gives you a natural high
If I could be anything, I’d be your breath of fresh air
The one who will always have your back and will always be there
If I could be anything, I’d be the one you carry around in your spirit
The one who accepts your love openly and does not fear it
If I could be anything, I’d be to one missing piece to your heart
The one who fits perfectly like a sculptured work of art
My True Essence

Your Fantasy

Your eyes, your dimples and your smile
Everything about you just drives me wild
Thinking of you makes me wet
I always break out in a cold sweat
Imaging the things I want to do to you
How I want to make your fantasies come true

Your fantasy is to have another woman in our bed
One who can eat me out while I give you head
Then we both will give you all of our attention
Help you relax and get rid of that tension
Me sitting on your dick while she rides your face
Your dick feel so good, I start picking up the pace

She reaches over and kisses me softly on my lips
I’m kissing her back while rotating my hips
Riding your dick like a bull at the rodeo
I can tell you are enjoying the show
You watching her then watching me
Too bad it’s only a fantasy

My True Essence

You’re Mad and I’m Mad

You’re mad…
Because I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be
I’m mad…..
Because I was blind to the things I should’ve been able to see
Like…
How you treated this relationship like a damn joke
It’s my fault…
Because I knew from the start we weren’t equally yoked

But yet…
I stayed
Hoping my insecurities would eventually fade
Instead I let you treat me like a sex toy
Only here for your pleasure and joy
Nothing more or nothing less
You’ve proven you’re no different from the rest

You’re right…
Being there for you was what I was supposed to do
I’m right…
I should ‘ve loved myself way more than I loved you
More…
Than settling for anything less than what I deserve
It’s time for me to leave while I still have the nerve

You’re mad…
Because I’m finally leaving you
I’m mad…
Because it took so long for me to do

My True Essence