Ride or Die

Looking at your picture
I see a grown ass man
Handling his business…
Every day giving all you can

I see the strength in your shoulders
I see the worry in your eyes
Both you hide so well
Behind a smile used to disguise

You don’t complain at all
About the obstacles you face
Instead you keep pushing, moving forward
Working hard to keep the pace

Providing for your family
Expecting no glory, no matter the cost
Standing back in the shadows
Hidden but your presence not lost

You are my protector and provider
The man of my dreams
The one who keeps me together
When I start to unravel at the seams

You are awesome father
An amazing person and friend
I wouldn’t trade what we have for anything
I’m ride or do until the end

My True Essence

Struggling in Silence…

We were never taught how to deal with our troubles
But told to keep quiet about our struggles
So we do and then the self-destruction begins…
The self-hate vs. self-love battle we’re fighting within
Internalizing the pain instead of releasing the hurt
Falling down, staying down and wallowing in the dirt
Because getting up requires putting in the work
Crying but hiding our tears by standing in the rain
So no one else sees the evidence of our pain
Too afraid to admit that we sometimes stumble and fall
Even making ourselves sick from dealing with it all
Not really dealing but just pretending to be
While putting up a front for others to see
Sometimes our struggle is too much to bear
But the only help we believe in seeking is prayer
So we pray and we pray and we pray
While struggling to make it thru each day
The silence of having to struggle alone is a horrible feeling
However breaking the silence can be the start to healing
Please know it is alright to accept guidance
And stop struggling in silence

My True Essence

I’m feeling you…

Not the kind of feelings I get from your touch
Even though it’s a connection I love so much
It’s a sensation I get down deep inside
Where the essence of who I am reside

I’m feeling the way your soul whispers to mine
Taking me away to a special place and time
Speaking a language only we can understand
While walking this journey together hand and hand

I’m feeling the way your silence loudly speaks
Words only I can hear that makes me weak
Nothing compares to what we have and how we have it
I love how we’ve become each other’s favorite habit

I’m feeling you…

My True Essence

In The War

Me against the world
Fighting to stay alive
Doing what I must to survive…
Using my pen like a weapon 
Shooting pieces of worldly nuggets
Slaying with words instead of bullets

Reloading…
Killing my target with knowledge
Using wisdom and power
As my strong tower
My ammunition of choice
Penning my voice
Praying it keeps me safe and unharmed
I’m always learning
So I’m always armed

In The War…

My True Essence

Sidelines (Written by Conflict, a guest writer)

Standing in the shadows of the crowds
Never quite noticed, Although I was always around
I’ve played the sidelines, never quite in line of vision.
So how could you know if I was what you were missing?
No way you could see my heart
Flutter each time you’d depart.

How can I pull you to the side, align you with my mind?
How could I meld our souls to the common goal?
Playing the sidelines? That’s shit’s so old.
For tonight’s the night we become whole.

I’ve played the sidelines of your heart and mind
Watching you move up close and from afar.
Remembering every time we met,
You saying I think I know who you are…
On the sidelines, on the edges of your reality
Wondering if you’ll truly ever see me

Written by Conflict

Thank you for this my friend. 🙂

 

You Started It!

You started it the night you kissed me in the car
It was one of the most passionate kisses I’d had by far
That one kiss turned into a weekend of pleasure…
Like we had found a big secret treasure

Afterwards there were many phone calls and texts
Joy and excitement for what was to come next
Pretty soon we started meeting up here and there
It didn’t matter where as long as we shared the same air

Who knew our meeting would turn into this
Great times and evenings of sexual bliss
It was supposed to be a one-time fling
But somehow it turned into a love thing

My True Essence

Prisoner

Prisoner of your own mind
Is a prisoner of the worst kind
It’s not the haters
Or the fakers
Or the friendemies…
Holding us prisoner
It’s our own thoughts

It would be easier if it were
The haters
Or the fakers
Or the friendemies
Holding us prisoner
Because with them
We would eventually be free

My True Essence

All That Talking…

I hear you talking all that noise
Showing off in front of your boys
Bragging on your fat dick…
And what you’re going to do with it
How you’re going to wear my ass out
Make me scream your name and shout
I want you to know that I ain’t scared
And I hope you can back up what you said
So don’t threaten me with a good time
Just shut up bring me what’s mine
Come handle this ass like you said would
All that talking… It better be damn good

My True Essence